"American Dream Dealer"

 The Animation created by Jodie Mack "Yard Work is Hard Work"  was an interesting take on commercialism and the toll it takes on our relationships.  Mack used magazine clipping as the medium for her animation which I had never seen before and I think really contributed to her message, what we see in the media play a large role in what we think we need to make us happy. In one particular scene a relater had said to the you couple "I am your American dream dealer" that line stuck out to me. we all have a personae that we want the world to see, built out of material things. these things become symbolic of who we want to be.  when something obscures the vision of who one wants to be it results in a feeling that what one is left with isn't enough. the stuff become the foundation when it shouldn't be that way. In reality the person we want the world  to see isn't who we are. The couple in this film are faced with this. they jumped into the american dream forgetting to build up there relationship, instead just building up there stuff. in the end the couple is left with financial strain and question of where there relationship stands. another line that struck me was one of the songs the couple sings, "I missed the place I've heard of but doesn't exist"  To me this signifies the "ideal" relationship  that has no place in reality but is very much ingrained in our minds.

fires Dared to Ignite

Garren Smalls poems are like little short stories capturing a moment of communication. he said himself he likes to write about people talking without really talking about anything of substance. at first, I was skeptical of his statement, but then I began to think about it i realized  it happens a lot more in life then I or anyone would ever really want to admit. he brought up a great point, he had said something along the lines of- people who are truly in love actually talk to each other-equal parts listening, talking and trying to understand what the other truly means. relationships that fail tend to fail because of  miscommunication.  We had also briefly discussed the difference in the means of communication between both sexes. in class it was generalized to: men tend to say what they want to say frankly when they want to say it, women say what they want to say in more subtle ways and these things are expressed with more frequency  I think there is some truth to that, that couples often times forget that men and women have a different way of communicating, so  instead of just expecting things one must actually ask the questions instead of just waiting for the answers. there were two poems I really liked that Garren Small read, one was called Along the Row and another ( I'm drawing a blank on the name) about a couple eating salad on a subway platform. the first, Along the Row explores the loneliness everyone feels and at different levels in different relationships.I have personally felt that the highest level of loneliness can, ironically, develop in romantic relationships, ones where one or both lovers are not invested and are together for the sake of being together. I liked the imagery in  the poem of the men walking along the road in New York  in "white shirts and orange ties." Mr. Smalls went on to explain that he wrote this to express the empty conversations men have about sports when there are far greater things to discuss. I think in general people tend to talk about trivial things to escape the deeper stuff and also because its hard to bring up such things and do it justice. one of the sections in the poem that caught my attention  was about the couple " he wants to explode it to her. he wants to whisper it to her. he wants to take her hand  in  hand."  I think these lines show that as much as we want to talk about things, scream it to the roof tops, the interpretation and the idea of rejection shatter the freedom to communicate freely, even with those that you truly love. the other poem about the couple eating salad on the subway platform, is an example of true romantic love. the couple was able to spend time with one another  enjoying each others smiles with out any kind on gimmick, no distraction, just a moment in time with the one you love.

Early-Stage Intense Romantic Love

One of the ideas Professor brown presented  that stood out to me the most occurred in her first few slides. she used particular terminology for the list of behavioral changes and emotions that occur upon entering early stage intense romantic love, she used the word symptom.  earlier in the year we had played with the idea that love can be an like and addiction, changing the way that we think. Dr.Browns hypothesis supports what we had discussed,  the idea that love is an ailment something that intrudes and messes with our psychological homeostasis. this is not only evident in Dr.Browns Hypothesis but it is ever present in the arts. Dr. Brown also told us that love is not an emotion, but rather is primarily associated with motivational systems in the brain.Branching off  from that idea, motivational drive/craving felt by people involved in early stage intense romantic love brings to mind the cliche yet partly truthful  phrase " distance makes the heart grow founder." This is present  in classic love stories like Romeo and Juliet and in more modern films like Before Sunset. With distance the craving becomes more intrusive, kind of like when one is thirsty and being deprived of water. The dopamine levels in the brain are directly connected to the level of excitement in the relationship. couples that engage in arousing activities that are new for both members in the relationship, can renew excitement in the relationship  its safe to say this directly relates back to the idea of distance causes a stronger longing, couples will have high dopamine levels if both are only allowed to indulge in the other within a limit. characters like The Bad Girl and Concheta had the right idea  when thy deprived there lovers of the "water" making their thirst that much stronger.  these women wanted to prevent the early stage intense romantic love from expiring. they wanted their men to continue to be addicted to their love. with that said, there is another question to be asked. In Dr.Browns study there were the participants who were later asked follow up questions and were no longer in a relationship;were they truly in love with the person or were are they purely interested in euphoric high?  these people lack the suppression of social judgement towards their partner and suppression of the concept of the self. did this people feel the attraction but maintained the relationship purely for the feeling of being in love but not for the love of the other person. Dr. Brown mentioned that not everyone has experienced love and not everyone will. There are people who look for love but do not seek to find what to love in another person. I deem these people love Junnkies, addicted to the feeling and will do anything to achieve it but actually falling in love. these are the kinds of people who go n the bacholor and break-up after the high goes away- because there is nothing left for them in that relationship. In the words of Mumford and Sons "How fickle my heart and how woozy my eyes..."-awaken my soul 

Freedom is not given... but there are moments when it must be taken away

The movie poster for Amistad had a quote that seems to contradict it self, but I think it reveals some truth. "Freedom is not given, it is our right at birth, but there are moments where it must be taken."  freedom can be loosely defined as the ability to decide ones fate without the intrusion of another. The lack of freedom usually has a negative connotation, along with it comes the idea that someone or something is committing an act of oppression. But the lack of freedom is not only in relation to slavery or dictatorial government but it can be found in relationships. This lack of freedom doesn't equate to bad, but it in fact can be good. relationships allow us to unselfishly make choices that effect the lives of others as well as our own. the lack of freedom to do what ever we please allows us to fit into society and develop good relationships. we desire to be with other people and in that moment we are surrendering our freedom to others. In love the surrender of freedom can be even more significant because your are trusting this person with your freedom. you are bound to them, becoming part of a unit and  making decisions for another person hoping they have good intentions for you as well. committing to another person involves surrender which is scary but it allows for revelations that can not be made without the new experiences the other provides.